New year... new wishes?

First post on 2006 :)

Hope we are all wise enough in making wishes...

As they keep saying, hoping that our wishes come true this new year :D

Xmas

Hey stud :)

Merry Christmas
and...

Have fun!

:D

holiday!!!

Yesterday, I finished my last exam -organizational behaviour- for this semester.
And its like for this year, I have done all my obligations...!

Now no more wake up at six, go to campus, do homeworks nor postpone all the good things to do..
What's left is time to have fun! Til next year of course...
Watch all the movies I haven't saw, read the books and magazines, have some time with my psp (which only makes me mad -like I am stuck at that stupid level-)!

And for Christmas (dont be ridiculous, I won't waste any chance to have new cute things), together with my sister, will visit auntie in Singapore.

Fever

Yesterday, when I was supposed to prepare for today's exam, couldn't focus.
So I decided to go to Novotel, to swim then sauna for few minutes.
It was raining.
From Novotel, I went to Galeria and had some fried noodle.
Back at home, I have a fever! With all its things, flu, cough and hot.
There's no way, I can prepare for the exam. Was so dizzy.

I don't know what was that, which gave me the fever.
Rain, sauna or the food I took?
Could be some poison on it, or worst this could be that newest sickness they have on TV all the time... I started to have wicked mind.

After spent all night long, sweating in bed. I decided to take shower at 6.00 a.m.
The shower made me so dizzy.

Went to hospital at 6.30 a.m.
The doctor asked whether he should needle me or just give some pills.
Ha ha needle me, like I like that idea!
I have some bad memory about doctor with their thin needles...
Oh, if the doctor can read my mind, he'll know that I'd like to have my butt spanked before a needle land on it. You know, they say that when your butt get spanked, the nervous system will send the "exciting" moment to the brain, then its a very safe moment to get needled.

Oh I got a letter from the doctor, said that I should take a break today, and I was going to use that letter so I can postpone the exam as I didn't prepare at all.
But then, screw both the exam and the fever.
I'll do the exam.
I am so lucky that the questions are so easy.
Done in 20 minutes.
Then went to canteen.
Had breakfast.
Took pills.
Home.
Slept.
Sweated.
But feel better.

mistake...

I wanted to do it.
I did it.
And it was a mistake.

Now just wait.
Hopefully there won't be a regret.

04:15 p.m.

Finished Organizational Behavior (OB) class.
Rain cats and dogs.
Trapped in the hall.
No can go anywhere but toilet.

People are sitting. Laughing. Surfing the net with their notebooks. And their PDAs.
[I haven't brought my powerbook yet, to try the hotspot here... Mine will be too kinky...]

Pretty girls and boys with their thick glasses are reading their books.
Bored.

And the things I have to do, now seem like a whole lots heavy stuff which I barely think I can do on time.

Need to edit my OB paper.
Find a case and write an analysis for International Economics class.
Prepare for english presentation about terrorism (what a penalty!)
Do my Microsoft Excel homework and get ready for the test (I don't know why must be "Microsoft". No other things else on this earth?)

I am just about to mutiny...

Ally

You expect nothing on earth.
You're growing like others...

One thing you believe to do to stop the process is kill yourself.
But for fuck sake, you do need better reason to commit suicide.

Those around you are turning to be your foes...

Know what to do when everything.. everyone is against you?

Find some new friends to completely get rid of all your foes!


You knew me.
Now you don't.


One last thing to do is ally experience with someone's skill.

Have everyone desires you.

To ride

Aren't they so sexy?


[Vespa LX150]


[Piaggio Liberty 125]


Fall into LX150...

Religion = obligation?

I grew up in a fundamentalist family.

I spent my 13 years in Catholic schools...
Playgroup, elementary school, junior and senior high school.

Currently, I am studying Economics at Duta Wacana Christian University (DWCU).

(I am not being fanatic...
I was sent to those Catholic school for they're the best in every aspect.
I chose to study at DWCU, well... apart from my failure, that I didn't make it to Gajah Mada University, DWCU is in the central part of the city...)

What happened?

I am Buddhist -now-... (if I have to have a religion).

I am not a Freudian. But I know that its true that good believers have neurosis. I meet few already...

I am more to Nietzsche since my first year in Jogja.
An existentialist, nihilist, but unlike him, I am not unavoidably atheist.

When you live in Indonesia, you gotta have a religion.
Don't ask me why!
Stupid thing which need some space on your ID card to show that you are not loveless?

So, Buddhism is just perfect as what I know is they don't pray to any god.

Safety catch?

University Party

So last night I decided and went to Hugos with some friends...
Needed to see the party.

It was full of students.
Saw some I've known...
Who were/are in same class(es) with me...
And who used to hang out with me.

Too crowded, so right after I got my second glass, I went home.
It was 2 a.m.

Now I am already up.
Have to be in Intl Economy class at 7.30 a.m.

Bloody sleepy.

1 full day out

This is funny.
Or not at all.

I think what people want to see when they're in Jogja is the Borobudur temple (thanks that we're not in the same level).
But anyway, it always be me who accompany them.

Here are some pics when my friends paid a visit.

On the go, Pocai and Dony had a fight how close is Kaliurang from Borobudur..



Kiki, couldn't help. Eager to pose :D



Pokar, Kiki, Dony and me. No smoking!



In Paris (Parangtritis beach) at last.

bad bad mood

God, this is really upside down!

So fucking mad...

I grew up in the east side of Indonesia where people talk loudly, rough and violent.

But...
I live in Jogja where people behave their selves, speak in a good way, without much noise...

Sometimes its so stressful when it happens that your friends whom grew up with you in that rural area are now spend their holiday in the place where you live...

Totally causes a bad bad mood!
I like to go out with them for some fun... But I don't think we can be a good room mate... I should die on the day five!
What I need now is an earplug. I need some quiet moments...

Hmmm but I might be a little bit overreacting because things don't go they way I plan. We plan.

We are supposed to go and have some fun at Hugos cafe tonight.
We were there.
But no letting us in.
Some of us were wearing sandals.
And no matter how bloody expensive the sandals are, they are just sandals.
They are not shoes.

Need to wear shoes to get in...
And now I am just lying in my bed.
Blogging.
They're playing soccer on tv.

Yeah I need an earplug.
Or a new iPod (since my sister uses my iPod, for hers is kaput) to use with my in-earphone.

For fuck sake, I am so gonna buy a nano or video!

What now...

When did I meet my friends (they're kind of friends who share almost everything so far, those who play and learn and fight and cheat and mean since still 5 years old)?
Its been ages...

Now they're in Jogja.

Since the few last fasting days til now.
All in our plan is play playstations and cards, go to shopping malls and pools (both swim and balls), watch dvds, go to tourist places, sleep late, wake up late, try to postpone laundry time... All about having fun.



At first that's cool. Good to be a super lazy boy.
But later... Its just not my patern. I need to do some serious things too!
Some serious shopping... :)
Nah, I just need to get back to the real world... I need to do something.
Go to campus... Or learn something else instead give my brain days off.

But maybe I just need some changes.
Tomorrow the cafes, pubs, karaoke bars are open.
So... Who knows...

Back to campus or... Step into the club.

0700 hours post

Mom called at 0630.
Really a good morning Jogja call. She knew that Jogja is 2 hours behind but she keep doing that...

She told me that I shall call my grandma (My mom's auntie, she's the only grandma now) and do some other things (which are confidential)...

So I called... And her daughter (aka my auntie) answered it. Long time dont see them. Last time is like when I was 14. Dont get me wrong... Today I am still 18. More less, I feel so :)
Nah... I am having fun being a 20 something boy...

Oh, she told me that today is grandma's birthday :)

Wish her all the best...

What have I done so far?
In this life...

Not much :)

Is it a short life, mine?
Actually doesn't matter.
A short one gives one a chance to be like a James Dean or Kurt Cobain.
A long one, well... gives a chance to see whether you're still hip next decade.. or not.

Invent a strong bad side, whilst the good one ain't really dead.

Balance?
Nope.

We are our desires

Let me share mine...




Confession :
I still own my 3G iPod (with touchwhell), which amazingly is the oldest gadget ever been with me. Oh it's an old fashion one, you won't see it on Apple's.
I am longing for a new mp3 player, smaller one!
Mobiblu's a great choice but damn, I didnt win the auction @T3.

Anyway, changing my equipments now... To go, I'll take my Razr Blk along, left Treo at home. For quite long trip, PSP would be a great toy for games, movies, songs, even wi-fi ready ;)

Let iPod has some rest (you know, my earphone's off too! damn.)

Own assistant

Gee... Couldn't stand anyone.

This is wrong but... I am the best in managing things.
You'll be so lucky if you happen to hire me as an assistant .
Oh, not to mention how wealthy you are...

Assistant who can assassinate?
Spell the numbers...

Status

Just back home.

The exams ok... Not so bad though I know I should be more careful.
Now you have the idea whats my score...

As usual, I always be nice and help one who ask me how to get this, what to do so the answer is that... Such things.
And they memorize it quickly!
[a matter of style that i dont see i am teaching in front of class in my future. i like it more when i rule]

My problem is... whenever I am in the room... Have to write down all my answers for those questions... Something weird happens to my stomach.
And I forgot... No, I become less careful and trapped.
I answer uncorrectly.
Thats for questions with some maths and logic.

The stomach things been happening since I was in junior high.
It was a feeling of great eagerness which lead to the mistakes.
Cocky and anxiety at the same time.
Know can and want to do it then do it wrong.

I was born with all the worries...
And I know that I keep worrying all the stupid things. [thats bad, right? i will totally look older if i haven't had some funs!]

But now, its a new level where fun ain't the priority.
Friends from the old days still go out partying whole nights...
Not make me jealous, thats no longer my shit. I have responsibilities now.

That's true that I can't always control my self. My mind.
Now what the hell I am writing? :)


Memory status : Low.

Need to take shower. Sleep. Alone.

Hurray

Finally....

Got my powerbook back.
Funny enough, I miss this stupid thing so much.
So happy.

Oh first time to do after unpacked, turned it on.
And *bang*... I forgot the password.
Tried heaps of word that I use a lot. But still couldnt get in.
At last could reset the password by input the master password.

Wuihh...
Who needs to learn Management accounting for the exam tomorrow?
I need time to be with my lovely powerbook!
*use your term, wanna touchie-touchie*

[post by email right away to let you know that I am a bit high now...]

Nerves

I have problems with my nerves below my left eye. They keep make my eye feels like blinking... It's been 3 days now.

Tomorrow I will call mom and ask her if it still bother me.
But most probably she'll say that it's a sign that I may... either lose (someone) or get (something).
Of course it would be nice not to lose someone, which also mean get something [ehm, like a new game?].

Better ask a doctor... Or else, go shop.

Blank Gun Silencer

often it is the only
thing
between you and
impossibility.
no drink,
no woman's love,
no wealth
can
match it.

nothing can save
you
except
writing.

it keeps the walls
from
failing.
the hordes from
closing in.

it blasts the
darkness.

writing is the
ultimate
psychiatrist,

the kindliest
god of all the
gods.

writing stalks
death.
it knows no
quit.

and writing
laughs
at itself,
at pain.

it is the last
expectation,
the last
explanation.

that's
what it
is.


Charles Bukowski
from blank gun silencer - 1991

Time for new jeans

I am so fucking horny for these jeans. I should take a week off and go shop!



The left one, I am so gonna need to wound it, while the right one.. hmm should be a little bit low.

When will I be able to design my own Levi's?

Avian Influenza

...
Makes you think twice to consume fowl and pork!
No meat. No egg.
Its time to turn to be vegetarians (again).
You for sure. Whole family perhaps. And your pet should get used to eat bread and milk.

Ramayana

Last night, I had a chance to see the joint performance between Thai and Indonesian dancers at Prambanan Temple.
Thanks to Paul and Permana, I got a nice view from my seat.

To see the show, reminds me to my childhood, few years ago when I was still in elementary school.
I remember it was an Indian's version, on tv every saturday noon. And I was so crazy, skipped whole noon classes just to watch the show!

Anyway, last night I noticed that Indonesians are so far beyond consideration for the feelings of others.

There was a moment when a man went to the stage and take the microphone after the whole speeches. And some of the audiences hush-hush him (not the same hush-hush like Patti Paige's hush, hush sweet Charlotte).
It was more like a "normal" people do to a dingo. Yes, they did so like the man was a dog or something. Really they were so unmannerly.

And when the show began, they did laugh at Thai people with their "funny" sound. Is it understandable to laugh when you hear funny language and tone for the first time?
No. You shall not laugh!!!

Oh maybe this is a good thing, when Indonesian dancers were on the stage, they gave a big applause. But personally I can see they chicken out to see how their dancers look compared to the Thai's.



Thai costums were really shiny (without the sense of being cheap) while Indonesian's were so humble.



Thai dancers could bring the chicness from that age...
Indonesian's were a bit show-off, with all the nipples (male's, sure) showed til the end.

Oh about the fights, I like it more when Indonesian dancers did the fight things, however Thai dancers (gently) posed particular positions of fight.

Note that they'll also do a joint performance at Gedung Kesenian Jakarta on Friday (Sept 30).


Both pictures taken by Paul.

President and petroleum

There's something in these days that I don't really care, but at last it turns out to be an everywhere-topic.

So, the oil's price is up.
Who cares?
Why should I bother my self with it?
I don't drive.
I have nothing to worry about...
Mostly I take public bus, and if its fare is up too, yeah its not so bad...

Now, -apart from the price- like not enough problems happen, it also hard to get...
I pity for those who drive their bugs or jazz or whatever (eh I dont know for sure that someone in Jogja drives a Porsche here).
The queueing at the gas station is so damn long. Straight up, what makes me post this, is the... -I will say a mistake-, worst mistake our loved-by-public president, Susilo Bambang Yudhoyono (SBY) created.
I don't know why as a leader he couldn't be a "rebel"...
He should learn from the history anyway.
Soeharto, when he was the president, announced right 2 hours before the oil's price's up.
See? At that time, who would stock up the oil in 2 hours? Who listen to the radio at 10pm anyway...

Now I gotta ask these...
What was in SBY's mind?
And what did his mate, Jusuf Kalla (JK) do?
I don't know their intentions at all...
By the way, why it's so hard to have a president who really care for the people? The one who smart enough to lead but isn't greedy.

When I was small, I wanted to be a President. Now I know that it's so hard to be a president. We owe too much already, and I dont think I wanna work hard find the way to pay the debts... And make someone who'll replace me someday owe another billions.

Slob as always

It's 11am now.
And I am still in my bed.
Still sleepy.

Like tsetse did suck me last night...

No. I am always sleepy like this. Anytime I wanna sleep, I sleep.
[I know, to have insomnia is what I expect so I can prepare better for tomorrow.]
But [hey, since I don't belong to people who need extra more time to learn] that's my distinctive feature eh? :)

Could snog all day and night long. LOL.
Anyway, thinking about you. 3 more days?
Hmm shall I remind you how lucky you are to be with this plush? :))

Financial Management

I am doing my homework now... Financial management.
Exactly the same questions like we had at mid term.
In fact, it's a way to get a bigger/better point for those whose score below 100 (from 200).
My score? 25 from 200!
No kidding. I am the "stupidest" one in our class.

The score upset me!
The professor really upset me.

Despite the fact that she gave incomplete questions, no hint at all, and forced you to assume (ie. you gotta assume when the client will pay his debt, surely it affects the annual payments!), her attitude drives me crazy. Friends said she's trying to make an impression that she's a "man eater", but I feel pity for her. I can see that she is lacking of self confidence.

And what I couldn't understand is she gave points for those who just copied everything from the book, no matter how wrong the numbers were!
I calculated correctly use the right formula and what did I get? 25 from 200!
Sometimes I think all idiots encircle me.
Really, I do.
Or perhaps I am the idiot who excessively proud of my self...

Yes, I know this is bad to talk bad about others but... Couldn't help.
I am writing what I feel.
Yet I hope that she'll give me at least B.
An A and blessed you.

Dry up!

Ok, life's pretty dull and dry now for some reasons...

» Brother and cousin has left, so its me and sister only, in this jungle house. We need more people...

» Too many to buy, so little money I have.
Even already put my plastic-alarm ON, try hard not to swipe them so often.
Once, I told a friend that I need a side job.
He replied "You don't need any job. You just need money."
Touchè!

» I need my damn powerbook to go on my project. Damn, I really want to finish the story and find a publisher. Or anyone would love to help me publish it?

» I am learning how to be a good marketeer. When the time's right, mañana, I'll sign for any great numbers.
[mom, your son's been adopting a whole brand new lifestyle for real good].

» Oh and tonight? In 5 minutes I will do my homework. Financial Management. Ok, you got it right, ain't cushy. In real life, I won't say that I am good at it.

ckckck...

Fight for the right

I should post this one 2 days ago, right when I had the chance to talk to Padang Digital.
They tried to call me few times when I was in accounting management class. Surely, missed the calls.
So I called them back when the class was over.

The man did sound... (forgive me to be frank) classless.
His point was they never said that I have to pay us$200 to have my powerbook repaired.
Ck..ck..ck..

Anyway, have any idea why they bother themselves to reach me?

Apparently, it's a something they gotta do!
When I had the information that they issued a warranty statement, I sent an email to Copperwired, where I bought the powerbook, and asked them what's wrong with its warranty.

The email then was forwarded to the right man! Now, I think everything's gonna be ok. Just wait and see.

Powerbook : about to be charged US$200

So, after been held for more than 3 months,
Padang digital said that I need to pay US$200 if I want my powerbook, which I bought in January 2005, repaired.What?

Ok at first, doesn't sound so bad. They held my powerbook and in about a week I'll get it back, works again. US$200 is ok.
But then... Hey, why did they hold it for such a long time and now they said I will be charged so?
Get right!

I sent email to
Copperwired Thailand, where I bought the powerbook, and asked them whether its true that they sold me one that warranty's been started even before the date I purchased (4 January 2005).

Gee, what's wrong with people in this world?

New link soon

I was working my butt hard to keep cool while running my imagination, being a bit more creative, try to make a simple blog design.
[Hell, I could kill people who keep my powerbook away from me, pending for over 3 months. I shall write that apple give no good service for its fan whose powerbook's ruinned at jakarta post, perhaps.]

Anyway, I was playing with colours when I got an sms. Someone got in touch with me via Yahoo messenger, which I set to Mobile. Then we had quite long chat...
Funny, how you can join other people easily these days.

Bon vivant

Ooouch so long skip the french class and I barely can remember what I was taught, kind of totally forget.

Last night, I was watching God is great (I started to like Audrey Tautou since Amelie) and for the movie was in french -sure I set the subtitle to english, I wont let my self keep guessing what they talk for 2hours-, I thought I better find a friend who wants to take the course with me! (If I have no time to select a native speaker hohoho)

Oh but that's not the point... What I wanna write here is...
I'd been very busy with all the homeworks, and lost almost all my fun time!

When I was in surabaya few days ago, Dony (friend from high school) gave me many mobile phone magazines. And I remember that it's been a very long time since I bought my last one, Treo.

Despite the fact that I love my treo so much, I need another mobile.
Trust me, I ain't such as a boy who love to do a ménage à trois.
For I never had a motorola so far, it would be nice to get MotoRazr V3, black one.
Yeah, it lacks for memory and a MP camera but cant resist its shape.
So slim. I want one.

And... -Ok, I am a sinner- I did my research for sharp mobile, and once you own a GX30, you will want to have V902 so badly, which much better than the perfect-then GX30.
Fortunately, you can -only- get V902 from swisscom.
Means, I better make my plan to fly there? :)

"I don't know, sir. Can you? *smile* I like to have a V902."

It's a ménage à quatre!

DON'T BUY APPLE !!! [or else, you die!]

I will let you know what will happen once you buy apple...

Firstly, you love the iPod.
You crazy about that box, which holds thousands songs and all your back-up datas, and you know you gotta have one.
Then you have it.

Oh its standard earphone hurts your ears. You need to replace it with a soft in-ear earphone, which last several months only. Then you stuck with the old standard earphone for few more months until you know that it's broken too! No choice you got, you need to have another in-ear earphone.

Problem solved.

Hmmm powerbook looks yummier when you have iPod. No can resist, you buy one.
Everythings cool until one day, you find out that its down too. You sent it to the service centre, they said "Problems with logicboard" -whatsoever which took already 3 months and still in that hell.

And then your only earphone is broken.

I wish people will think thousands time before they choose to swipe their plastic at apple shop.

I am totally against apple now.

PS : I am negotiable, this time.

Borobudur - Glagah Beach

Who : We're 3 (Rio, Ryan and I) from Duta Wacana Christian University together with students of Atmajaya University.

When : Last saturday
Where: Borobudur, then Glagah Beach

Yes, had to ride the boat first!


Where the hell is the beach? Wake up!


Won't spell their names. Too much!


Poor Rio, dismissed!


Ryan, Rio & I, confused which camera to look at.


Oops, which part should I touch?

TWIMC

Why lately you got plenty of calls (both with numbers and private numbers) and the callers are regrettably dumb,who last few minutes?
Either they're coward (i won't say shy) or you're so irresistible, right?
Silly.

Why can't they just say something?

Why not just send text messages if still chicken out when you call them back?
This drives you nut.

But since you have the idea about karma, you can't curse them.
You only sit down and blog.

an economist in a plutocracy world

I am so hungry.
I ate my meals, twice already.
Plenty of snacks I have taken.
I need to bite something... Someone...

Homeworks are just too much...
I understand the questions but dont have the answers..
What information do you recommend be supplied to the production workers in the new environment that emphasizes quality, defect reduction, problem solving, and teamwork?
You have a killer boss, babe...

Yeah, right...
I did my research but cant focus to write Leadership : a Contingency Theory.
What should i write about that?

I did discuss about taxes and all the values but dont think nothing wont keep me busy so i have time to count the future value, what will i get in 10 years.
What the hell, will i get any?

I hope what i am learning today, will be useful later...

Have i used up all my brains to think about obtain wealth and live well in a plutocracy world, so its empty now to do my homeworks?

I am...

... Missing you

More power please

I am exhausted.

Completely, in need of rest.

Woke up at 4am, sister need to be at her new campus for orientation-thing, so i went with her.
Going back, too excited with the idea to walk home. So i didnt take the cab!
I was walking for about an hour, (imagine how far was it, as i always walk fast) then did make a stop at the market. Bought bananas.
Going home. Took shower.
Had breakfast.
Went to campus.

... 2pm, management accounting class, slept!
Good enough, there's a friend who kept talk, talk and talk, bugged me.

4pm, finished study. Went to a grocer's shop, bought milk and bread, then went to novotel.
Swimming for half an hour then moved to internet cafe.
Updated friendster.
Then back home.

At home, none home.
Fed becky -the short dog-.
Shower.
In bed.

--- Mom and sister arrived.
Making calls, making plan for her to outta here on 29.

"Thumbing" my treo.
Write this post.
Then sleep for good!

7am, to be at campus.

Open and shut

Next saturday night... (August 27)
Lets meet @insomnia.

Whoever you are, bring along friends. More is better.

Drinks are available...

..We are going to go Dutch.

Secrecy

There are two (huahahaha you can pay me back later when we meet) lonely men in a city full of joy...

To think or to know what are they doing there is something i dont fancy.
Will they go to those pubs just like they plan to?
Will they stare at those bare legs and slip some "moneta" as they touch them?
I dont know...

What i really know is...
They shall go out and do some shop of current sexiest blackberry!
Its 17:20 there and its too early to step into a hellhole...

Aint it such a good idea? :))

One more stop.

In the lounge.
Surrounded by proletariat and not.
Javanese talk with familiar accent...
Chinese girls with short cloths move around...
Truck driver look like men smoke like hell...
Pretty man plays with his blackberry...

30 more minutes and will be leaving for Jogja.

Beers...
Cookies...
Emails...

Go belly up.

Fisrt, I think I am broke.

That scares me... All the bills are keep coming.
Well, I guess i did have an expensive fun this holiday.
How to solve this, i will think tomorrow...

Now, this is something new...
My butt is painful.
(I have impression that when you say arse, people think you refer to that thing -tube-, like... "Pain in the arse"... and when you say butt, its the flesh... "Yess, do it... Slap my butt.)

Anyway, it is painful!
Yesterday, I took part in tennis -reintroduction- and i know its ridiculous to know that all the rest in a day, have problems with their legs... their arms... their bellies... And me... My butt. What a shame!

Its me.

So you're back.
Had heaps of fun.
Got the fisherman's dark skin colour.
And love it!
Want to keep the colour that makes everyone looks unwell.

..
But truly, whole me is itching.
The skin is recovering. Its been the darkest i ever saw... and had.
Its dry. And aging. Aloe vera couldnt help much. Now it peels off.

Scratch me... Rub me...

Ssshhhhhh....

Fate Gocheva, an allegory.

Once upon a time,

A five years old boy carried his gucci suitcase along the aisle looking for a free seat in a very small waiting room. His plane was supposed to leave the city in two hours. It was quite long waiting time to be in a very uninteresting room but he had no choice. He had an appointment, one that he could not afford to miss.

When found he finally a seat to let his butt supported his weight, he saw a girl dressed to kill, extremely attractive. The little girl wore a shiny boot, mini white skirt, and a black leather jacket zipped up, hid what was inside it. She had literally everyone's attention.

The little boy looked at her with his eyes wide open. He thought that he was in love... He had to have that little girl.

No. On the second thought, he did not have to have her for she was in fact his date today.
After all, she was chewing a gum!
The boy did not like people who chew. Simply no class.

The girl stared at him, smiled. Like she could read his mind, she took the gum out and placed it onto a paper before thrown it into the trash bin.

The boy smiled back.

The girl then zipped down her jacket and showed what she got.

The boy smiled. Again. But this time, followed by a wink.

Then took she aim.
She pointed her gun at him.
The boy did not make a move. His smile remained the same.

She kept quiet at it.
To the boy walked she closer.

The boy sent her a kiss.
He opened his suitcase and showed the girl.

The girl smiled. She was happy to see what was inside his suitcase. She sat next to him and kept looking at it.

The little boy leant to his left and kissed her right cheek.

The little girl returned the kiss.

The little boy smiled. This one was a really mean smile. He cut her neck suddenly.

So died the little girl.

Two hours later...
The boy was in the plane; leaving the past.
He had done his job.

What a day.

He needed to take a nap. It was okay now to rest the eyes and mind.

The police never came.

The people did not care. They did not scream either to see her neck bled.
None was disgusted to see the mini white skirt turned red.

The employer seemed ok. Satisfied.

His people were in the plane, leaving the crime scene, leaving the city, leaving the past.

The little girl woke up at last. She tore the sticking plaster from her neck. She zipped up her jacket, smiled, and walked away.

The little boy awoke. It was 0200 hours only.
He went to the bathroom and peed.
It was such a weird dream.
But he thought that he loved her.
He had to see her again; he had to have her.
A little girl with a shiny boot, mini white skirt and a black leather jacket zipped up.
Whose name knew he never.

Now grows the boy ten more years...
He is a mercenary. Strangest thing is he does not really care about searching a girl with a shiny boot, mini white skirt and a black leather jacket zipped up...

Heaps of fun

What will you do when you have some days off your tough life?

Packing and journeying.

Go and have the fun. Get the tan while walking with small size swimwear (or super mini bikini for girls) on the beach. Get or be a bitch.

Have a swim. Be in a flume. Or do a scuba! And grab whatever seem nice!

Relax, play the secret garden and have your body massaged by those whose hands smooth and remove the distress.

Loads of chocolate and ice cream to use up while watch the classic or just released DVD.

Last thing come into my mind, after used up those aphrodisiac, arousing sexual desire...
Go to a bar or call one of your favorites, and get the whole heaps of fun.

Shall we start?

PS : I am not drunk while I write this post. In fact, i just woke up and next thing to do, have a shower.

Dr Seuss (- Thing)

I'd like to shut my mouth and control my typing-fingers,
try not to cock up the things...
But...

Ok hey, this is for those who ...

ok, just ...
ehm, hope you're ok afterwards.



You have brains in your head.
You have feet in your shoes.
You can steer yourself in any direction you choose.
You're on your own.
And you know what you know.
You are the guy who'll decide where to go.

~Dr. Seuss

New era

Hehehe for sure when you just finished the summer classes, a week or two off is something big. After the days you woke up at 6am, now you can have good mornings at 11am. Its something you want so badly. And its about time to get lazy.. Or get laid.. Or get a loads short time jobs. Ouch... I am not teasing.
I just have so much time for so much fun now...

Fucking miserable thing

What the fuck did i do wrong so i deserve this?

My powerbook was used by my sister to watch some DVDs (What a slob! She owns a PC, but god knows why she used my powerbook!) and when i wanna use it, the screen is all black!

What did she do? Just shutdown from the right up corner, said the lady!

For god's sake, better i lose no data!
My almost-finish novel is saved in that god damn thing!!!
All my papers for whole this summer classes are in that powerbook!
Not to mention all the pictures! And the music!
God!

Miss Pee See

Hehehe this is not a love story between Mr Alex and Miss Pee See.

I just miss PC.
Microsoft.
Windows.

It's fun to have a palm instead windows mobile... Mac instead windows... but sometimes... just miss old stuff.

I am not saying that windows is something old (it is indeed) that new (questionable) again.
I just miss the simplicity. Plug my flash disk and then start to unzip all I've downloaded, and work!

I am a newbie in Mac world and got no time to browse... and look... and try for the alternatives.

I love my Mac for I have my iPod.

Lazy sucks. Fren sucks.

Sucks sucks sucks to have many prepaid numbers... And couldn't manage, keep them "alive".

I have a fren number from mobile8 (injected to a cheap samsung) and I have to top up (reload) before June 15 or else...
(well, in an hour) I will lose my credits.

Sucks, to go out this late and found none.

Sucks, to make stops at atms and couldn't buy the credits.

Sucks, to lose.

(sleepy)

Chatter and treo.

Do a google for words you dont understand.

This is more about gadgets.
If you own a treo, you're so have to install chatter.
It lets your treo become a "blackberry", you own a push-email device without subscribe or sign a plan with any service provider :)
The software costs 32 bucks but you can try it for free.

Enjoy mailing!

I am so excited and going crazy everytime my treo rings hehehe..

Feel good

Ooh what a lovely saturday...

Just emerge from sleep, and its already 9.15 am. Wuih, hard to believe as I get used to wake up at 6 am. 4 classes in a week, start at 7.30 am. Bus chaser needs to up so early...

My french course is over (mais je ne crois pas que je pouvoir parler bien francais maintenant) and I will have time to focus on economic.
Its so crazy, everyday, have to submit the paper. Reguler homework, they give also. Until August, I will be so busy...

Oh this is saturday and for I still have time, I should go and have some black russians at night but... I dont know whom to go with hehehe.
The painter had moved to... bangkok?
My colleagues? I dont know yet whether they drink such things or not. But I have a plan to invite them to my place and serve them with some beer, vodka and sheridan's coffee layered liqueur.
I know, its a great plan, I will enjoy watch them get drunk hohoho.

Oops, auntie's coming.

Ambidextrous

Ok... What about ambidextrous?
What is ambidextrous, btw?

Ambidextrous is .....
Later. Hehehe.

Lucy, one of my best friends, asked me this morning by sms
"How do you know that you're falling in a right love?".
I was in the class and tried so hard to focus on what my prof spelt, but i gave up! Thats really an annoying question and I cant help to reply it. Beside, she might be in a big trouble, falling in love with a handsome drugs dealer, so I replied. "For god's sake, you better tell me the answer as i don't know how to notice a not right-love...".
She replied "I am getting crazy. Should I dump my boy friend for another one?".
That sucks. I expected more.
I left my mobile inside my bag and put my mind back to my prof. But then I forgot to text her back until 11pm! Thats when she shot me with
"What the fuck are you doing? Stop it now. You hold me for ages. Anyway, I won't dump my boy friend. But I'll keep this man too.".
I dont know what to say so I texted her back "When u wake up, make sure you're sure thats his name. Dont say wrong name. Liar, in your case cheat, needs good memory."
"I dont have to. It wont be a problem. I am ambidextrous. Hehehe i am blushing. God!" she replied.

Ok. Hold on. What is that?
In few seconds, dictionary helped me.
And blushed me in the same time.

Ambidextrous : able to use the right and left hands equally well.

linux @ cafe

ya know what's new?
linux is everywhere. now.

sucks.

i am not a fan of microsoft (in spite of its internet explorer and easy
plug and play, i despise it) but to use linux for surfing...? that is
horrible!
it might be too soon to say that linux is sucks, for i don't know what's hot to
surf with... (what's hotter than opera?) but again, it's sucks. sucks. sucks.

it needs more time to be ready once you press the power button.
and when you start a new program, again it's so bloody slow.
unforgiveable thing is linux does not look good.
for linux users, programmers, anyone... (whose concerns?) please do me some
favours... make linux looks good and speed up! (i use Xandros 3)

thanks god, i have my dear mac at home.

not a sex-post

What will happen later to people who have had too much sex while they were still young?

Become a sexacholic?
Lost their sex drive?
Sex sucks?

 

(Lately I know that I worry too much.
Too much to think and do. And a lot of mistakes, I do.
I think I do. Seems like either I lost my self confidence or too many perfect peoples around me.

 

If you ask me what do I worry now?
In a second I'll say that I worry that they will find some mistakes I do right now. What mistake?
He, don't you know that I am not good in grammar?
I should have my grammar improved...
Well, I am not good in english. No, in languages.

And in few more seconds I'll add... I also worry about.. well, too much.)

 

Btw, about that question above, its not my intention to talk about sex here.
Not because for some it's still a taboo thing to talk, I just don't wanna talk. Do not wanna talk here :)

So don't expect that you'll get some hints about my sex life (whether I have one or not, and I won't clarify it either) or some tips for your sex life (you know..)

That question reflects what I am trying to ask...
Will we be bored for what we've done in a long time? (see? again I'm not sure about my grammar... I should have an english teacher who's ready 24/7)
Take a shower, this is not about sex!

 

Uhmm what was I trying to say?
(all things come and go, my mind is like a bus station...)

 

Oh this... I am bored with my electronic agenda. (but please don't ask me whether you can have it or not... don't even steal it!)
I need a nice and useful agenda book! Paper...
One with leather (yeah right...) cover and it must be not so big (hey hey hey). Should fit to my jeans pocket...

 

 

Confession : I had one with leather cover and it's not so big, in 2003. I need its refill... as I kept the leather cover :D

New link

Ooops, in few hours will get back to my nest.
Ready for new battle. New job? :)


This is good news, got a new nephew!
Sister, you gotta be busy hehehe...

asudem

DONE

... bite the bullet, dude!

Little devil

In Bali.
Got a tattoo..
Little devil.
Doest it perfectly fit to myself?

:))

Still not ready

Hehehe 3 homeworks due Thursday, have none finished yet.
Actually, got an article and have the outline in my mind, for the presentation. Just need to write and print them and one is done.
Should do some google, perhaps I'll find some good article for the other two tasks.
Thats the problem, having another lazy dudes in the group. Make no progress unless move your own ass first.

Oops, saw an ad, Garuda Indonesia offers some cheap flight!
I should run away to Tokyo LOL.

To do in a week.

Hmm busy busy week.
Starts on Monday, Operation Research, I don't think I wanna humiliate my self again, but since my midterm ain't so good, I have to do something. At least be ready when got a chance to write my answers on that stupid green-board..
This the last chance anyway, final test next week.

Tuesday, only français.
Talking bout français, it's so.. counfusing for me. Not easy.
Ce n'est pas facile.
But gotta continue this one..

Wednesday, nothing to do with study. Laundry day. Many to wash.

On Thursday, it'll be a full day. English, at 07:30, I'll have a presentation, about what? I dont know yet. Still looking for something I am good at.
After English, Bahasa Indonesia. Funny thing is the Prof is so... Great. Fantastic. Every story that we wrote, she did correct it perfectly. She must be a great editor, but not so many authors will like her.
If I'll be an author, I won't hire her. I won't.. need an editor anyway. LOL.
Then, Macro Economics. Like a presentation a day is not enough, I must do an interview session else. I'll be tested how good I prepare my self about the topic I chose for the paper.
Cours de français will end that day.

On Friday, I gotta submit my paper for Introduction to Business.
Luckily, this time I don't have to answers any question.
Then, will move to Lab and join the Operation Research for the last time.
After that, Accounting 2.
I don't really like this subject. I got a good score at midterm but can't help me to stop hating it.

Saturday?
Have no class. Have no date. Have no plan yet. Maybe gather with all siblings and cousins will be good idea.

At last...

Got a domain!
And its hosted now...

One things-to-do checked!

Camiguin, Philippines.

Recovery

I know that I have nothing to regret...
I wasn't in a big shit.
I ain't wasted all my time doing nothing.
I do things correctly.
I am very good in math.
I need no good social-life as I am just too good.
I am just... perfect.

Yeah, sounds pathetic.
They're out of true.

A cold morning thought

What am I looking in this life?
And, excuse me, where the hell am I now?
Oh, do I know who am I?
---

They're suddenly in my mind like a bullet just fired from a gun.
After a long pause, I still stick with my previous favorite answers...

I am looking for something great and I can't explain what's it. The truth is, I don't know it yet. I just will know that THAT's something I am looking for, when it hits me and I will be gratefully instead complaining.
But mhh I dont always complain, does it mean I've got the right hits several times? No. I don't feel gratefully either.

Where the hell am I?
I am stuck in this slow-motion city so called Jogja. Gladly I moved here. I am completely loving to be here. Or maybe it just because I don't have too much bugger (FYI, I just know that some people refer bugger to a person who commits an anal intercourse.. And I am not talking about that kind of buggery.), people to bug me, to annoy me, and I like this situation.
Same that happened to me when I was so far away from civilization, in a small island named Camiguin. Do nothing but enjoy the view. Feel quite happy as it reminds me to my island where I was born..

Now, who am I?
That's the both lack of common sense and great question.
I am a small island boy whose dreams are beyond my own expectation.
I am a very random person. I'd do any randomly.
And there are a lot of another "I am a ...".

Things that happened in a very silly and unwanted ways recently :

- I seldom online now.
Checking emails become so easy, as just need to press a button.
Read and answer them use mobile.

- Friendster = a scary thing.
Got several messages from people who... you have no idea who the fuck are they.
Searched by home-town is the worst.

- Domain is remain freeze.
Its been April, yet my domain is unavailable.
Supposed to be on market again in March!

- A fool in Operation Research.
I was so... shameless today.
Once the prof. gave a chance for those who are shameless to write down the answer in front of the class, I took it!
Super confidently, I walked to the green-board [We still use that cheap chalk and green-board instead luxury marker and white-board] and write my answer on it.
None laughed or made some noisy as they theirself were busy.
The answer was not completely wrong. It was not completely right, either.
So it just like being a silly for humanity. I let my self be a fool.

Did I forget that I have a blog?

Well... Long time no update as I am busy with my study.
New projects.
New goals...

Time's ticking and they're shouting.

Wait until I have some time.

first one

So, this is my first post from mac. And also the first post use wi-fi.
Oh don't give me that look!
FYI We have some places here in Jogja which provide the hotspots!
And right now, I'm at the lobby of Novotel hotel, surfing freely.
And it just great.

2 hours surfing around, found out that the treo650 is the best pda.
Just perfect. Well, Almost perfect.
Was looking for Clie Th55 european version and XdaIIs, but both have some lacks.
Can't sync XdaIIs with mac.
God damn hard to find Clie Th55. [It's my lack of network, eh?]

So?
Treo650...



---off

I just wanna write this one in about 3 minutes before step into the class.
Hendra, a friend from same small town, same school [we were always in the same school, til we're too big enough to move to what city we liked] is in Jogja. For holiday. And today, he's staying at my place while I'm in my campus for all day :)
He must become so grumpy right now, and when I back [about 7.30pm] he'll have to be already in a big hell, waiting for my arrival to burn me up hehehe
poor mate!

And for Dony keep bugged us to watch "If Only", we made it yesterday!
Bought the movie then watched together with everyone who's in my sister room.
And, Dony... the movie was great, but I don't like being sentimental. Especially, when I'm alone. And that's too much. It was something that I'd prefer not to watch with those people hehehe.

Ok gotta go.


PS : Honey, I am sinking as I can't stop the time. None can. So just let me :)

OMG!
It's already February now...
Running out time... Scares me.
I had too much to waste, time and energy.
Wait wait, Did I have that much? Because someway I feel like I am sinking. And there's nothing I can do.
I don't have much power to do my activities.
Just like a mobile, I am Low Batt.
I need to think and do nothing. Back to a super lazy boy.
Charge my body and soul.

I am sure I am sinking now...

Mr February

Lots of fun in February!
Tomorrow is Chinese New Year [and for being polite, you'll get something from your family.. and even beloved one!]
The day after, is another holiday!
Rolling on the floor, being lazy for all day...
Then Valentine, I should go to Bali!
And have something for my self...
Life's so good! On february.

#1 on February

I am bloody hungry right now.
6 hours ago, stepping in Insomnia [like a lounge] with friends who I met about 4 years ago [but we're pretty close] ordered nothing but Margarita [It was a Buy one get one free, believe me I wasn't "Kyasu"] then moved to Hugos cafe and hardly can move my body. Need a drink, I thought. So there was a glass of Screwdriver.
[Confession : It was my first time to be in, both Insomnia and Hugos].
From Hugos cafe, here I am.
"Stuck" in the internet cafe.
From here... I need to make a stop at Circle K.
Chips are ok... for breakfast? It's 4am now.

Come back!

It's 05:15 pm. now.
I just finish Operations Research class [God knows, 2 questions homework is just too much if deadline is 11:00 am. tomorrow.] and I must say that one couldn't get away from math ever.
I like math but I was expecting that it'll be easier in Management and I'll have a lot of spare time to play or surf or do something else.
And when I say math, believe me, I am talking about Linier programming, Simplex programming, so so.

About 7 minutes ago, I was walking from my campus to this internet cafe [I like this one for I could use my FlashDisk to save what I'd like to download] and did make a stop to buy some fried stuff -you know, fried tofu etc- and... what I am going to tell is, do not eat them with green chili if you skipped your lunch.
Stomach problem, make you feel like make a poo.

:D

OFF

I don't need anyone to tell me that I am a perfectionist, because I really know that I am.
And that's true that I am a lazy undicipline perfectionist.
So, I better get some who will watch my work and keep bug me with all the things that could make me kill them.
This morning, I met my "Bahasa Indonesia" lecturer, and I think I'll need her help when I believe that my novel is worth to read.
And to work it out, I'll take a long day off.
Ciaobello.

watch me

Classes officially start today.
And I'm ready to show off.
I mean, for the first week, I should show something off, right?
We [come on!] need a little bit more attention, right?
And those who rememberable will [who knows?] get great points, right?
So... here I come.

mice

Have you ever heard the voice of a mouse which trapped on a glue-paper?
I Have. It's like "Cit ciit ciiiiiit"
Trust me, it hurts you! Really it does.
And I think PETA won't like it. [will they? even for a mice?]
But what can you do when you know that mice like to have late-night party at your kitchen?
You have to do something!
And as I can't afford to have a cat [I believe that it's nature that cats kill mice. men kill mice? where's the reputation?!], the only thing that makes sense is buy a glue... and let them stick their self on it.
And about reputation, do you really care?
Last... does anyone know how to kill mice without making them "Cit ciit ciiiiiit".
Instead act and do like a snipper, i mean.

closer

What will happen to you when you finally watch closer?
Will you push your self to play a role just like Natalie Portman did?
Or will you try to speak queen english just to feel sexier than Clive Owen?
Wanna be childish author like Jude Law?
Well, the effects may vary...

And what happened to me?
I am taking portrait pictures now.
Not because I like Julia Roberts [believe me, i really don't like her. i just don't]
With a pocket digital camera I think I still can make some close-up photograph [and i mean it. a very close up photograph] and it's time to use macro!
And guess what?
I just picked 4 12R photographs.
Surely some of your not favorite part of face will appear [as the pictures meant to be something real, with your pluses and minuses] in a big paper, and... hmm your sibling may will love to laugh at!
Like.. my lips. My sister's cheek. Or my brother's nose.
But hey, that's for fun! And to show that you dare to look like a human being without make-ups! Oh, and strangers... smile!
I'm out now...

PS : should I post the pictures also?

45 minutes left...
I've an appointment with Mr Purwadi [please, don't ask me who mr purwadi is] at 1 pm.
I found some mistakes with god knows what they call it.
Here's the problem, I was studying IT and I had a few great scores from few classes I took.
Means, I passed some classes. Means, I just need to transfer them and needn't to take the same classes again.
But, on my online-file which can be checked anytime anywhere as long as there's an internet connection, I can't find them.
So... in 43 minutes...
I'll speak to Mr Purwadi.

I do ...

Finally, there's an invitation on my desk.
A hardcopy one, that makes me believe that it's gonna happen. Heard it from my family before but couldn't believe. And now, it's there. On my desk.
Sealed. And I prefer to keep it so.
My lovely supercute cousin will have a wedding party next month.
Congratulations.
Cheers!

... wish you all the best

Nellie McKay

When I was in Jakarta few days ago, Ve took me to aksara and there, I found a very great CD.
First time I heard it, I was totally like it.
For I had no clue about the singer, I did a google.
And it's an understandable thing that I [and maybe a lot of people] don't know who's bloody Nellie McKay.

USA TODAY
"Her clever double-disc debut, Get Away From Me (take that, Norah Jones!),
was my favorite strolling-around-the-neighborhood recording of the year."

ROLLING STONE
Records of the Year "Get Away From Me," encompasses hip-hop,
dance pop and alternative rock as well as bubbly jazz on its two discs,
but it's McKay's laser-beam wit and able songwriting that made it one of the debut albums of the year."

Now, go shop and get your own McKay!

hate/love

School.
Friends.
Hate/Love.
Life.

Do not get bored. Feel lucky that I'll post a lot.
And this is a quite [i'll say] funny one.

A friend of mine in the past [well, we still be friends, but not like we were, so just named it, X], did text me last night.
It's been a long long long time [imagine, about 3 or 4 years] since we moved to our chosen city to study.
At first, X introduced Xself to me. With few things that X thinks will remind me of X.
Sure I remember X. We had a great bond. We trusted each other. We cared each other. And at the end we betrayed each other. Well, X betrayed me, in fact.
I was [and i am] a very nice boy who .. just nice! And nice boy doesn't betray.
Anyway, X just wanna know how's my life. My study [we were the best! yeah, it's cocky but that's the truth]. And everything [include who's my lover, if happened that i have one].
For being polite, I asked X more less the same.
And at the end, we asked each other about our desire.

X wants to be a friend of mine. In this present. Perhaps in future also.
X wants me join our old group and back to our lovely city next holiday.
X wants to be the best and get best job X ever dreamt.
X wants to have children and make me a god father [with laugh X texted. So, can't help, really don't care whether X was serious or not].

Then it was my turn as X forced me to tell my desire.
I was going to tell X that I wanna be an author or in a worst case, a journalist, who has got over the past [which can interpreted that i am still a friendly friend of X's]
But then I decided to text X

I am young.
I wanna have fun.
And get my fame.

Then it took a long for X to reply.
And me to think.
For old time's sake, do not be such sentimental.
I am a very new person. I learn everyday. And change everyday if I want to.

Another apple to bite!

O h m y g o d . . .
Every second you'll find a newest and smaller-size-big-thing by surfing the internet!
Now, allow me to introduce... iPod shuffle!
Look at this tiny little bloody cute thing.
Everybody likes it! I bet they'll do.
And it's not the only new thing.
Macmini is another damn great thing to have.
Damn you, Steve Job!
You are a bloody adorable man!

clueless

What a bloody hosting provider!
Domain.indo-web.com is lost in somehell else and so is my site!
Have no their office's phone number.
Have no their office's address.
It was a cyber transaction...
Have no clue what to do now...

Loveable

Some of what I brought from my last embarkation, which I decide to recommend are :

The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night Time by Mark Haddon [MUST buy!]
Alan Hollinghurst's The Line Of Beauty [i am still in the beginning but it's already interesting]
31 songs - Nick Hornby [in the middle]
Shanghai Baby by Wei Hui [all thumbs up]
Mark Twain's Huckleberry Finn [they said this is the best. don't read it yet]

Correct, they're the novels. Do googles!

Movie?
Well, I bought 3 dvds when had a chance to be in the shop.
They're Closer [kinda lost, but i like it!], Calendar Girl [not yet watch] and Confession of Teenage Drama Queen [a bit funny but don't really like it. too teen!]

Bags?
Huahahaha. Just buy one when you think it looks damn good.
Two is even better.

Gadgets?
Yeah, saw a lot, bought one. Some will be soon in Indonesian market.
Nokia 7710 is a pretty bloody interesting thing. But too expensive for what it features.
Motorola MPx I dare to say, a must!
Powerbook [ok, i admit, i am too much in love with this thing], just buy it!

What else?
Places? Clubs? Pubs?
Ehm.. I better sign off. Right before some get me wrong.

lack of taste

As I can't even open my hosting provider's web, I am totally hot.
Burning up. Sweating.
Something must've happened.
And what makes me want to scream,

' S t u c k h e r e . . .
with a noisy atmosphere comes from tofu's song. [too lazy to link tofu, do a google yourself if you're insterested in a noisy maker band]
I can't stand why the front desk girl in this internet cafe can enjoy that song!
Now, it's a day time. Damn hot day. And you're supposed to hear something chilling.
There's a lot of options. Take Emi Fujita to play. Or Susan Wong. Or any others favorite golden sweet memories of yours...

Gees, now it's linkin park! Plus Jay Z!
End of the world! It supposed to be played in the morning! To wake you up!
Arrrrrrrrrrrggggggggghhhhhhhhh.....

Hey lady, you're fired!
If I'm the boss.

Alas I ain't.
Uuuuuuuhhmmm take a very long deep breath.
And go. Leave this bloody noisy world.
I'm checking out.

Ciao.

no can find

Christ!
What's wrong with my bloody hosting?
Now, can't find any pages on stevenanggrek.com!

Switching it temporarily to blogspot now.

happily back to life

Holidays off.
Back to jogja now.
With six new novels to read [i am not sure when will i finish them], three dvds, and few more junks.
Whoops, plus a lot of experiences :)
Had the chance to meet three new persons. And learnt tons of thing.
God knows, how small I was, being in that groups. Well, I am!
Perhaps, my life will starts at 30... if I have a chance to be so, surely.

Anyway, today's the day that made me nervous.
The day to pick up the result of [only] 5 classes I took.
And it was a damn great thing for me. Quite satisfied.
Before, I was thinking that being blond must be something ridiculous.
You know, some say they have light brain. Some say they've much more fun ;)
And I was lost in it. Forgot a lot of things. Being a slow thinker. And it was so fit, like I'd a light brain. And about being someone who has so much fun? Do not ask me.
But I dare to say that I am a lucky one. A bloody lucky one.
Now, as things back to normal.
Classes to join. Courses to take. I am thinking to dye my hair again, to make it darker.
Is there any dark ash to get?

photos

Uhm, got no more time to upload to another hosting provider.
so below you can click few links to my shots on Fotografer.
Girl in Red
Couple [i still think it's a romantic moment]
5 p.m.
The Lake.
and much more to be uploaded.

later!

tsunami help

This is what I found in last 3 minutes.
and now everyone can do something.
Like... "donate now.."

Click here to donate

Oh, I forgot to make this clear.
I am in Thailand right now, but in a safest place.
[I always being a selfish person in this world but that's something I can't help]
Will leave this country soon, anyway.

Ok, I feel sorry for those who swept away by the waves but...
that makes no change I suppose.
What more can I do?
Nothing.
It's a natural disaster and I can do nothing.
We can blame none.

Just wish them a good place..
[which I even have no clue where it'll be....]

somewhere in muangthai

This is a holiday.
And holiday means relax. Have unusual things to do.
So, all I am doing so far are... read a novel [surprise, i've read the half in day two] and have some times walking on the beach [stupid, i don't take swimsuit and tanning oil along with me!]
The beach will be always a good place for a photographer. And for I consider my self as an amateur one, I'll always take my pocket digital camera anywhere I go [now we know that photographers have no holiday! so to feel better, i should also write some more pages of my unpublished yet novel].
Anyway, you should see what I took!
I'll post the pictures later.
Oh remind me to renew my domain and upgrade my hosting later.

a new start

So... a new start for a whole new year.
Desperately hope, I will have what I've been planning, done in this year.
It'll be my ticket home after all.

g o o d l u c k !