0700 hours post

Mom called at 0630.
Really a good morning Jogja call. She knew that Jogja is 2 hours behind but she keep doing that...

She told me that I shall call my grandma (My mom's auntie, she's the only grandma now) and do some other things (which are confidential)...

So I called... And her daughter (aka my auntie) answered it. Long time dont see them. Last time is like when I was 14. Dont get me wrong... Today I am still 18. More less, I feel so :)
Nah... I am having fun being a 20 something boy...

Oh, she told me that today is grandma's birthday :)

Wish her all the best...

What have I done so far?
In this life...

Not much :)

Is it a short life, mine?
Actually doesn't matter.
A short one gives one a chance to be like a James Dean or Kurt Cobain.
A long one, well... gives a chance to see whether you're still hip next decade.. or not.

Invent a strong bad side, whilst the good one ain't really dead.

Balance?
Nope.

We are our desires

Let me share mine...




Confession :
I still own my 3G iPod (with touchwhell), which amazingly is the oldest gadget ever been with me. Oh it's an old fashion one, you won't see it on Apple's.
I am longing for a new mp3 player, smaller one!
Mobiblu's a great choice but damn, I didnt win the auction @T3.

Anyway, changing my equipments now... To go, I'll take my Razr Blk along, left Treo at home. For quite long trip, PSP would be a great toy for games, movies, songs, even wi-fi ready ;)

Let iPod has some rest (you know, my earphone's off too! damn.)

Own assistant

Gee... Couldn't stand anyone.

This is wrong but... I am the best in managing things.
You'll be so lucky if you happen to hire me as an assistant .
Oh, not to mention how wealthy you are...

Assistant who can assassinate?
Spell the numbers...

Status

Just back home.

The exams ok... Not so bad though I know I should be more careful.
Now you have the idea whats my score...

As usual, I always be nice and help one who ask me how to get this, what to do so the answer is that... Such things.
And they memorize it quickly!
[a matter of style that i dont see i am teaching in front of class in my future. i like it more when i rule]

My problem is... whenever I am in the room... Have to write down all my answers for those questions... Something weird happens to my stomach.
And I forgot... No, I become less careful and trapped.
I answer uncorrectly.
Thats for questions with some maths and logic.

The stomach things been happening since I was in junior high.
It was a feeling of great eagerness which lead to the mistakes.
Cocky and anxiety at the same time.
Know can and want to do it then do it wrong.

I was born with all the worries...
And I know that I keep worrying all the stupid things. [thats bad, right? i will totally look older if i haven't had some funs!]

But now, its a new level where fun ain't the priority.
Friends from the old days still go out partying whole nights...
Not make me jealous, thats no longer my shit. I have responsibilities now.

That's true that I can't always control my self. My mind.
Now what the hell I am writing? :)


Memory status : Low.

Need to take shower. Sleep. Alone.

Hurray

Finally....

Got my powerbook back.
Funny enough, I miss this stupid thing so much.
So happy.

Oh first time to do after unpacked, turned it on.
And *bang*... I forgot the password.
Tried heaps of word that I use a lot. But still couldnt get in.
At last could reset the password by input the master password.

Wuihh...
Who needs to learn Management accounting for the exam tomorrow?
I need time to be with my lovely powerbook!
*use your term, wanna touchie-touchie*

[post by email right away to let you know that I am a bit high now...]

Nerves

I have problems with my nerves below my left eye. They keep make my eye feels like blinking... It's been 3 days now.

Tomorrow I will call mom and ask her if it still bother me.
But most probably she'll say that it's a sign that I may... either lose (someone) or get (something).
Of course it would be nice not to lose someone, which also mean get something [ehm, like a new game?].

Better ask a doctor... Or else, go shop.